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So here I sit... sick, lonely, and depressed.
I'm infamous for having completely atypical symptoms for whatever ails me. I once had an ear infection in which I vomited more times than I thought was possible, and had pain just about everywhere but my ears. Around this time last year, I was in the doctor's office for a routine checkup, and he informed me I had a sinus & upper respiratory infection. This was news to me... I had no symptoms. So now I have a headache that keeps coming and going, and am breaking into these sudden sweats, and I suspect I may have a repeat of last year's infection.
To make matters worse, I'm having probably the worst bout of homesickness I've had in the nearly six years I've been away from home. My younger sister is having some rough times right now, and I so want to be there for her - I feel like there's nothing I can do from here. I just want her to know that I love her, that she's doing the right thing, and to help her stay strong. And my nieces and nephew are growing too fast, and I want to have more time with them before they grow up into little miniature adults. For all the times I've whined about not wanting to go home but feeling obligated to... now here I am longing to go, with no possible way I can afford to do so.
I'm so tired. I'm tired of watching people hurt themselves, and each other. I'm tired of watching innocent people die for no good reason, and way before their time. I'm tired of one thing going wrong after another. Not just for me, but for everyone I love. When do we get a break?
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